@Samicat I think you're being very insightful about the things you lost, both physically and mentally in your youth. You should give yourself some credit for that.

Last night I took 150mg of Seroquel for the first time. I still woke up during the night but I was able to get back to sleep, and I woke up at 5:30am, so I got about 7 hours of sleep.

I'm feeling a hangover effect though which is both good and not-so-good. It's good because the effect is keeping my anxiety in check which is nice. The not-so-good part is the hangover itself - I'm feeling very much slowed down. I hope this improves as the day goes on.

I have a ketamine clinic assessment today... finally! I've been patiently waiting for this for over a year.