I have figured out what's going on here. What's happening is that people that I've interacted with and asked for help truly want me to be in pain and they want me to suffer. That is why they have left me to suffer for years, neglecting me and ignoring everything I say. The truth is that nobody actually cares about me and they want me to not be around anymore. They have suppressed me so many times it's not even funny how manipulative and deceitful all these people are. I have asked for help so many times only to be ignored. The medical system is nonextistent for me because nobody in it has ever even tried to help me. This state is a terrible place for men to live who actually care about this country. They suppress us at every opportunity and diminish every one of our thoughts and feelings