I've been doing work placement for three days yesterday two people died. I just went home and all I could think is man as humans we can hold onto so much anger and hurt. It's like when we die it doesn't matter. Like I just personally feel like I held onto so much crap that didn't matter. Also like other people's opinion, being bullied at school and it's like man why do I even care? Like life is meant to be lived and now all I can think of is I wasted all this time sad dwelling on stuff and it just doesn't matter. Like it's almost has woke me up to the core. It's one of those sobering realities that we don't know where we're going to end up tomorrow. We don't know when we die and all this sad crap and war or whatever, weither it's a war in the mind i.e mental health or actual bombs exploding around you. Its just not worth it being angry and hurt. I just want to be happy and I want to have quality friendships and all this crap with feeling apprehensive with dating weirdly I'm overcoming I just don't feel it's worth it just watching others live. Like I want to be an active participant in my own life. Nothing can be done about the past I live for now and the future and that's how it should be. So live laugh, commute and meet new people that's what it's all about and learning new skills...