I've been in a good amount pain since 3PM. I managed a few hours of sleep. I took some tylenol and a zofran just now. I haven't eaten much in awhile. I did eat some dinner though. And I still have this cold.

I am pretty worried and kind of scared. My therapist told me they should tell me what they are looking for but they didn't. Like they didn't want to worry me or something. My Grandpa on my dads side died of pancreatic cancer and I just know that this blood level keeps getting higher and this endoscopy is important.

In therapy we worked on stuff I can control and can't control. I told her about my history of depression after anethesia so shes aware.

Idk. I just feel weird and not right.