I'm just feeling blah today again. Still hacking and blowing through kleenex. I'm having valium issues because my pharamacy is confusing. But whatever. I made it to my trip. We got some shopping done and I went out to eat for the first time since New Years. It was a big accomplishment for me since I have a phobia of eating out. Then once we got to the hotel I was so worn out and out of breath and I needed to blow my nose and I was trying to grab my backpack and I was putting some soda in it and my backpack spilled my meds and the soda all over the parking lot next to the car. My meds didn't open luckily but the sodas were pretty banged up. They didn't explode though. I asked my mom for help since I was really struggling physically and she helped me out. Then once we got to the our room I put on my shorts and just chilled out and watched Family Feud.

My appetite is really getting bad and I have these like red bumps on my leg. I can't tell if its a rash or bruises. I need Thursday to hurry up. I keep seeing commercials with coffins and for funeral homes and I know its just because I'm on edge and paying more attention, but its still freaky.

Idk. I just am tired.

The episode of SpongeBob was just on where Mr. Krabs had a vision of him dying and him being in a casket at his funeral. I haven't watched SpongeBob all year and thats the episode that they choose to play. I kinda got into trouble for having that one on a few years ago because it upset my brother.