I'm trying to go totally no contact. Nothing at all.

I've given up on any sort of reasonable interaction.

Well.... Not true. I keep wishing for a reasonable interaction, but the evidence to date says it's not happening.

I'm hooked on pursuing her.

I'm also hooked on apologizing and pleading for peace and closeness.

I'm feeling a lot of guilt. I'm wishing I could go back in time and not cause the narcissistic injuries I caused.

RDM