Yes, it is terrible, isn't it? I told him I was uncomfortable with him hitting on me, so I told him to stop. He did. Hopefully he will continue to respect my boundaries.

Yes, I do have feelings for Jay, and they crept up again after seeing him. I've had to process this quite a bit. I feel emotionally compelled towards him, even though he is not available to me. I've been wondering if this is because of my childhood conditioning and relationship with my father, or whether it's simply because I find Jay attractive and because we enjoy the same passions, which was missing from my marriage, especially when it comes to outdoor activities. And, I want Jay to want me still, which distresses me. I am trying to figure out what this is all about within me.

But yes, at least we can be friendly and talk to each other easily, and be around each other comfortably.