I agree with that (that long posts can be difficult to read for those with cognitive problems at the time being because of depression or other), Samicat.

I think this is the only time I have asked espesially for support Usually I let it be up to people to decide if they are able to say some comforting words or not (people are in differnt conditions here).

What happened was that I found something online that functioned as if somebody smashed right through my outside and into my most vulnerable parts. May be it wasn't well written, but thanks again for your quick response to it.

When I took the step to tell I was disappointed, I didn't do that because I like to cry out for help for the smallest "thing". That is far from my personal way of being in this world. BUT, and that is important: I think it is better to be honest about how one feels then to smile into the face of others and then talk about them behind their back.

I have met such a person online once (that smiled into my face and told me everything I said was OK and then turned around and talked behind my back), but that does not matter to me anymore.

I found other ways to get help for the crisis I suddenly experienced, yesterday, then waiting for help from my fellow-sufferers here. I am OK now, but very tired.