The quality of my sleep last night was very poor. I'm still in pajamas. I'm sad. My trip far away to visit family didn't turn out so good. I thought it would be a nice reunion, and I'ld come back feeling closer to them and like our bonds were strengthened. Instead I think this trip just back-fired. I realize now that I'm pretty alone in the world. I spent a nice bundle of money to no good end really. It's a depressing thought.

I really am depressed today. The main thing right now is for me to know that this will blow over. I just have to get through the few days it may take for that to happen. It may be hard for awhile.