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Originally Posted by Rose76
The quality of my sleep last night was very poor. I'm still in pajamas. I'm sad. My trip far away to visit family didn't turn out so good. I thought it would be a nice reunion, and I'ld come back feeling closer to them and like our bonds were strengthened. Instead I think this trip just back-fired. I realize now that I'm pretty alone in the world. I spent a nice bundle of money to no good end really. It's a depressing thought.
I really am depressed today. The main thing right now is for me to know that this will blow over. I just have to get through the few days it may take for that to happen. It may be hard for awhile.
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I'm so sorry to hear this, Rose. Unfortunately, family can be so disappointing. I haven't been with mine for 17 years now. Back then I got together with my family because my mother passed away. After she was gone, then I didn't have any desire to go back, and that's 3000 miles away. I could have visited my sister but I was never interested because she's too bogged down (and still is even though her husband and daughter are adults) and they would insist I move back to be with them. If I did, I'd be like second class to them.
Eight years before my mother passed away, my father passed away and there was more in my family there than when my mother passed away. That time together was horrible. It seemed like being together with my family at that time was harder to deal with than having to deal with my father being gone. After my father passed away, I had no interest in going back there again but I had to visit my mother while she was alive.
For some strange reason I can't talk to my sister on the phone because she's always getting interrupted and has to hang up on my because her husband or daughter needs something. That's BS to me and this happens like all of the time. So with that, I have no interest in visiting them.
Well, at least you gave your family a shot or a chance so I think that was admirable of you to give it a try. I'm so sorry to hear how you ended up getting disappointed and hurt with this. I don't have anything to suggest for me in dealing with this, but I understand how you feel.