I'm sorry you're in such an unhappy situation. Here is reality as I see it: In life there is a price for everything. You'll pay a price, if you stay with him. You'll pay a price, if you divorce. There is no third option where all will be good. You have to decide which is the worst price to pay.

No one can knowingly say, "You will be better off, if you divorce." Only you can decide which way is better than the alternative. It's good that you are taking a sober look at the downside of divorce. There will be a downside.