Wow, Billy, I'm really sorry to hear that your girlfriend needed to be admitted to the hospital. That sounds potentially distressing and disruptive . You are right though, she is safe. I hope she will not have to be there long.

I also hope you are doing okay. Post here if you need to vent or just communicate with others.

Yes! Good observation about the repetitive nature of the rowing machine. I once read an article about assault victims who were taught to crochet because of the gentle, repetitive nature of making the stitches. I do a couple of different repetitive crafts, as well as walk, sometimes think it's the repetition that sooths, and sometimes think focusing on one of those things takes the mind to a little different place.

My anxiety has been elevated the last few days for a couple of different reasons, so I'm there with you, finding ways to sooth.

Can't help you with the CBD, but have heard that other people have had luck with it. I take a couple of different supplements that seem to help with anxiety, including an amino acid combination, and one that might help blood pressure. I also drink lavender tea- which takes a little getting used to, but it's very calming. Chamomile tea too. I just recently ordered some lavender capsules to try before bed. There was one study that suggested that lavender pills had a similar effect to prozac. That's hard to believe, but the tea makes me feel pretty chill.

Hope you're hanging in there okay. Thinking of you.