Her being admitted is sadly not an unusual occurrence; she deals with much worse problems than I do, I'm afraid. I'm just not in a good spot to be without the company right now.

Tea, coffee... really, I feel like the act of consuming a hot, unsweet drink is just inherently calming and relaxing. That's why I enjoy my morning coffee routine so much. Ideally I'd go with decaf, but you can't really get decaf that doesn't wreck the flavor.

I'm glad you're finding ways to work through your problems, as well. I've found that getting out of your own head and helping someone else can be itself very grounding. I had a member of my community reach out for help the other day because he was experiencing a panic attack, and since he had never had one before it was terrifying because he had no clue what was happening to him. After talking with him and helping him come down, I realized how much the process had helped me, as well.