Just a flip flop of emotions. Realizing that recovery life is not for me, the demands of it is not helpful to my mental health. My sponsee said that she was going to "fire me" because she was pissed off at something I did that shouldn't have affected her because I was helping out another addict.

I was in that rehab for 14 months, I think I've done my part - but they keep pushing "service work" as how you stay sober, but I'm done. My husband won't be coming out of the psych hospital for a long time, and I have never felt more alone, I can't deal with all this recovery crap.

I can't pray, I feel nothing so what the heck is the point.

Just overall angry today.