I had my endoscopy today. It wasn't too bad. They didn't find anything other than some inflammation, but they took some biopsies and should have the results in five days or so. I know this sounds weird, but I'm kinda disappointed. I wanted something to say "see, I'm sick!" because I feel like my treatment team doesn't care since I'm not doing any actual damage.

They completely fking abandoned me is what they did. Case manager out for at least a month, peer support person gone AWOL, therapist keeps canceling, pdoc on vacation until the end of the month. I'm sick of everyone that I start to like--that starts to help, that starts to make things a little better--leaving me. I thought that was just regular people but apparently that happens when they get paid to listen to you too. I'm about to go down a very bad thought path so I'm gonna end it here and go.