(((((Tormented_Lilah))))) Your not alone in your feelings. Having depressed and conflicted feelings is all a part of the growing process. Adolescence is difficult because of all the emotions and uncertainities. Sorting them out can be a real challenge and take alot of hard work. Sometimes it seems like to daunting of a task especially if you are depressed. You could benefit from some medications. Only a t. or pdoc can know for sure. Good luck with school today and keep posting it may continue to help you sort out your feelings.