I am really struggling to give up on this one woman. I often feel good when I see her, sometimes even optimistic (like when talking with three people and noticing that it has only been the two of us that were conversing for a large part of the time) but the day after - or two days after - I consistently crash as the constrast with the loneliness I experience at home is too big. I am also considering quitting tango dancing. It seems absurd to me to spend all my free time in that context when nobody is interested in me (at least not beyond my dancing skills), especially if I am still hoping to find a partner some day. But I have no clue what I should do instead.

I am seriously considering a mail-order bride as that will probably turn out to be the only option for me. I can't seem to accept being lonely for the next 35 years to come (I am trying really hard though), but maybe that is too much to ask of any person anyway.

As for ACT, mindfulness etc. ... I have my first exam tomorrow and should be studying until Jun 27. I have seen ACT work for a number of people, sadly I was introduced to the concept in a context that was not favourable.