I know there are no prizes for holding it together.
It's also getting harder and harder to do.

Today's follow up hospital appointment triggered a shame spiral.
I know this is all a product of not coping well, but how the hell are you supposed to cope when your world turns upside down?

And how do I explain to someone who isn't you that I forget I exist below the neck on my worst days?

I didn't want to be there, even though she was well-meaning and friendly.