I think what it is is my family’s disregard of my boundaries and total disrespect to my character over the years. They’ve told some big lies about me to a lot of people. I haven’t had much say in anything it feels like.

My brother has had a history of stalking and harassing his exes and I think he got his start in domestic violence through abusing me physically and emotionally. He threatened to kill me every day at one point, and actually brandished a loaded gun in my face once (after firing it off outside our front door).

My family seemed to kinda use him as a snitch in an episode of triangulation and I blocked them over it. My brother’s history of handling rejection is kinda scary to me. I think that’s where it comes from mainly.

Though I think it also comes from them playing fast and lose with my address and phone number when I make a point of going no contact with certain family (like my mom, or my brother). My aunt said she almost gave my address to my mom, after knowing that my mom played an equal and willing part with enabling my brother to assault me. My aunt brought this up and reframed her interaction with me as threatening and accused me of harassing her(playing victim?). My aunt also called my mom a narcissist. My aunt seems to have similar traits where she triangulates then denies ever having talked to other people about me. She stonewalled me. In the past she accused me of lying once and smeared me over said lie. The pattern seems eerily familiar to what my mom used to do.

My mom passed away now, but I remember her giving out my phone number to my brother, after repeatedly telling her no. I've grown tired of the idea that we're family so it's okay.

I mentioned what she said to me after my mother died and she went apeshit and just started attacking me personally while comparing my life to her “wonderful life, and wonderful husband.” Like lady I brought into question the content of your words, not your status in life.

My thoughts are people who get enraged over a slight or any criticism while not caring that they lie will feel justified in getting away with absolute bull ****.

I think my family is kinda whack a doodle.

I’ve had the odd stalker too which was creepy.

A flying monkey attack is probably my bigger worry, which can involve stalking behavior.