this is my letter to my sister, my sister lives in california she might have a drinking problem(it runs in the family) my grandparents in this letter are on my dad's side - my mom is in her 50s and isgoing through that time in her life but with no meds and is extrreame- on the computer 24/7 -my dad sugest that he did not know if he could "live" with my mom much longer

my sister did visit and she got kicked out of the bar and ended up expressing herself to my mom and walked out the house trying to get to my grandparents house 4 miles away in the dark wtih no shoes or phone- we spent about 2 hours looking for her and luky a cop found her and took her to my grandparents house instead of jail for being drunk in public
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the mom we knew as kids does not exist anymore

all she is, is a teenage girl

i miss my mom and i wish i could have her back

both dad and I suffer every day

i don't know how much longer dad can live with her like this
and i mean this literally

as much as id like to be selfish and want you to live with us again- I don't want u to live with what we live with-

honestly im afraid if u had come that you woulnt live through another night like that one

i honeslty thought i was going to loose you that night and im to scared to talk about it because its too much to take
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grammy and pappy are getting old and they wont be here forever- mom is lost in her head and dad is working/drinking/smoking/stressing himself to death basicaly and he cant take it much longer- im living in hell and all i can do is hide and wait for college
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mom and dad had grammy and pappy to look to when they were in trouble- all we have is each other and with your drinking- im afraid im going to loose you to and then il be all alone and as much as im used to being all alone- i dont think i could live life to its fullest loosing everyone close to me
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college is all that I have left- its my key saving myself from falling into the pit of despair and grammy knows that most of all
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this was from my heart and i couldnt of put it any other way