So, I've searched all the boards and haven't found an appropriate place to plop this thread. I'm new and I don't have a "home" here yet. However, I guess it fits best here b/c for the first time in my life, I think I'm depressed.

For the first time in my adult life, I have nothing. I have negative money, I'm behind in every bill, rent, car, insurance, power, phone, etc... things are getting disconnected, discontinued. I only have internet because I'm out of town at my parents'... but I can't stay here, this is part of the problem.

I came home for a family emergency and in order to do that, I had to resign from my job. I have been here 2 months and the family has taken everything I have... literally and emotionally. I have complex PTSD from the severe abuse they put me through as a child and it has mostly continued. They have some days where they are perfect... others where they are just cruel. (mom is borderline/dad is bipolar w/addictions)

So, I've lost everything, everyone, not sure where to turn, trying to turn here but don't even have the strength to type out a post. I don't know what to do. This sucks. I didn't want to come home for the family emergency but the best friend I had kept telling me how selfish I was being for not going... so I came, and they have been horribly cruel. The only times they have been nice have been when I was giving them money but now that I'm out...

Ok, so, thanks for letting me vent. Not sure what else to say, I just don't know where to turn, I literally, not even exaggerating one bit, I have NOTHING this time.... and I'm 500 miles away from where I hold my lease... and the rent is past due, no utilities, prob all disconnected, ugh.... just ugh.

Thanks again.