I think the endoscopy reminded me of my psych hospital days when I would not be doing good and acting up and stuff and getting restrained. I just had a lot of people putting all kinds of stuff on me super fast and idk. Maybe it triggered a flashback or something. Then the hard time coming out of the sedation and stuff is still bothering me. Honestly I feel like almost kinda tramatized by the procedure.

I've been distracting myself all day and doing a good job at it, but right now things are pretty rough. I'm hoping this feeling doesn't last long. Luckily I got my valium in so I'm back to 3 a day.

I'm having some thoughts now. But I don't know if there post procedure thoughts or just the fact that I haven't gotten a decent nights sleep in weeks because of this pain. Twice this week I've slept for a few hours then stayed up most of the night then went to the family room at 5:30 and turned on the TV and slept on the couch until 7:30 or 8. I'm hoping the new bed helps. Alot.