These things happen for me too. I'm not sure what happens exactly. Not giving up? Good prevails, and evil dies. That's how it goes.

Be kind to self. I'll be kind to myself too. Balance out life, realize that - Once we are still, and calm.. To know our shadows, go places that we are avoiding, and make peace with it, it's all good. We have the time to do this.. All of the time in the world.

It's nothing about you - I remember when staying at my moms cancer treatment place, two women were "tormenting me" (Or what it felt like) - But when I was in a good mood (After taking phenibut)? It was no big deal at all.

Neuroticism.. Negative emotions.. (One sec, I'll search the meaning...);

"Trait involving negative emotions, poor self-regulation, trouble dealing with stress, a strong reaction to perceived threats"

We are smart people.. with trauma, possibly. Life is a trauma (To me at least) - Patterns can be in any way.. Just depending on how much you can listen to your whole self, reflecting from the whole world (Which isn't good right now - That's why there's psychiatric patients, on drugs - In a world run by psychopaths). It'll get better eventually - And we all have our own unique ripple that is in connection with everything. We are responsible for our existence, no matter what's happened..

I listened to Terence Mckenna yesterday - And he said "Reality is a fractal" (With all complicated explanations, that I couldn't follow - Cuz the earbud I was using wasn't working).

So to increase the mood? That's good.. Then there's not much fear. There's always some suffering - And we get to use that for good or bad.. And remember the fear/love thing I sent. All things are, is love - But like purgatory, a mixture of it all. We're in some place, in a galaxy.. It's nuts, but should be interesting -

- We all have our little lives, doing our things, having dreams, spinning around the sun. Let the sun shine, and that's all it has to be. People are dangerous, sure.. But gotta make sure that we know that we're all so insignificant - But also that the moment (Right now), is a complete miracle. Sometimes, it doesn't feel like that, we get caught in our thoughts, emotions - We get lost from ourselves.. But the place, say while you're in the middle of playing a good song (On ukalele - Or any intrument), anything that you've accomplished.. Small things even.. Be brave - You, me, everyone - Has a lot of strength (That we don't even realize).

It doesn't have to be constant, being hard on yourself (Like I do as well) - I think (IMO), there's no rules... If we are worthless (Which we aren't), that's why people can have no faith in themselves, and get weighed down (Depression).. But everything is faith - Everything leaves a trail, and all of those trails lead to the main highway - Energy flowing throughout all of existence. If you say it's good, it'll be good.

Of course we got to know when we really need help.. Some chemical imbalance, overwhelming inertia of bad things within the mind.. And that there should be some structure - But ultimately, it's ourselves - Who get to try and decide, our fate.. Could it work? If we do it right - That's hope, as we are just human.