What do you watch on tv? Don’t watch depressing news. Watch something funny or uplifting . Do you have access to PBS? Any streaming platforms?

You could binge watch Call The Midwives. 12 seasons of absolute perfection. Join Reddit and join specific subreddits dedicated to specific tv shows and talk to other people who like the shows and engage in exchanging ideas.

I don’t know what kind of stuff you find funny but keep rewatching it every time you feel down. For me it’s Curb your Enthusiasm. I know, not most people’s cup of tea but find what makes you laugh and rewatch it when feel down. Or reread. Find a funny book. David Sedaris? Try him. Short stories. Great humor.

How about podcasts. I don’t like them but my husband and daughter always listen to them.

I know those are solitary activities. But you could discuss it with others even if just online. And it’s not depressing like watching news. I know my dad watches horrible news and then is so miserable he can’t function. Read short summary of the world news and not every day. Don’t watch it.

Maybe you’ll join something and not fit in. Then you’ll try something else. Or maybe you’ll fit in. You just never know. 80% of success is showing up.

But maybe there is no need to force yourself to join. Not everyone is a joiner. There are things one can do alone. I mentioned writer David Sedaris. He has this so called hobby. He gets up very early and walks along Highway collecting garbage. Carries a trash bag and picks up trash. He’s known for it in his area now. He does it alone. No joining anyone

I do understand that depression is hard to beat. It doesn’t seem that any meds work for you, more you take worse you feel or at least it seems that way. A friend of mine swears by lexapro. I know you tried a ton of meds