Well I mention this because I want to behave better. I guess that's true. My mum told me that they don't need to know what I was like. There's that part of me that thinks when you have a partner they need to know everything. However I don't tell my mum everything. So why do I feel this way towards romantic relationships. Very weird. Also why is sexuality such a weird thing for me. It's a weird and difficult subject. There is no medium level towards me just either extreme obsession with it or a complete withdrawal of it. Just no medium thing. I don't know why I care so much what society thinks. This behaviour I want to behave in moderation. I guess maybe there's shame there because I was called the s word a lot in highschool.