@divine1966 - I have an Amazon prime account. I did bring that up on my TV a few times. I have an amazon stick attached to one TV and an old Roku stick attached to another. I have Direct TV (SATELLITE) which I'm supposed to be able to get on my phone, but I haven't figured that out yet. I watch stuff on YouTube, like history stuff. I wish I could get podcasts but don't know how.

Now that I've let go of the pipe dream that they were going to show me this stuff, I'll buckle down and learn it myself. I can, if I make up my mind to.

I need to sleep another bit. I woke up at 7:15. I didn't sleep right thru, but woke up twice. I won't be as depressed today. Once I get my place picked up, I'll start to improve.

I'm very grateful for the replies. Yesterday was so awful. But these mental storms have a way of settling down.