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Old Jun 11, 2023, 02:54 PM
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I ended up getting about 3 hours of sleep, but thankfully was able to pull through the day. I even managed to get myself out to drive some stuff up to my girlfriend in the hospital since I feel like the medication (the Zoloft) is finally starting to build up enough that I'm leveling out. It was a little touch and go heading there, but once I turned around to come home I suddenly felt much better (as I always do) and it really felt good to just feel free. I've been holed up and not gone anywhere farther than work for the last month and a half, and when you spend that much time letting anticipation build up for something like that, it really gets to you.

I definitely learned a lot from journaling and did so pretty quickly, actually. A lot of people probably dismiss it as "fruity", but honestly I see it as a purely scientific approach to my problems. It's how I realized that I'd gotten to a point where stress in general was translating to anxiety and it was getting triggered a lot by talking to my girlfriend. She is indeed aware and means well, but boundaries are definitely an issue and she has a difficult time being supportive since she's often not sure how.

I have been drinking CBT-infused tea, actually, and it does seem to be helping quite a bit (not really sure how much of it is psychosematic, though). I have tried the oil in the past and found it didn't do much back when I wasn't on actual medication. The lower-concentrations of oil all taste pretty good, but the higher-concentration ones all pretty much taste like weed. I've also ordered some CBD coffee that I want to try out since I've really not enjoyed giving up my coffee as of late and I'm starting to run out of tea since I sorta bought up the entire stock my local liquor store had.

I am doing better, but I am definitely with you on overthinking getting better. The little anxiety I have experienced in the last few days all came about because I realized that I was doing better and my mind was like, "well... why aren't you freaking out? You should be!"

I got the Switch just because when I get like this one of the best things for me is to try something new and I'd heard good things about Breath of the Wild, so I picked that up along with Mario and a few other games. Zelda hasn't come in yet, so I've just been playing Mario. Given that the most modern thing I own aside from this Switch is a PS2, it's quite the leap for me :P

I'm glad you have been able to work past your problems and grateful that you've been talking so much to me and helping me through mine. The support I've had from other people has really been a godsend.