I feel the only place i can post right now is here and abuse, because i think in my personal opinion people who have never been through abandonment, rejection and sexual and emotional abuse just can't understand how it is .... and it leads people to believe that i am a mean person, not someone struggling and trying to heal .... i often get paranoid about the amount of people reading my posts and the few replies WHICH IS MY PROBLEM I KNOW.

I am about to start very deep therapy this afternoon, so i will stay only where i feel safe right now .

thanks for listening, Kerry xoxoxoxoxo