I know some people can just enjoy doing art for the fun of it...

My brain just won't allow me to enjoy it as a hobby...

I love my new supplies and they cost a lot of money and I hope I use them and don't waste them.

Having any kind of interest can lead it to being complicated...

I guess I have too much I aspire to create with art. I want to develop new skills and create different textures that are pleasing to me.

And because I spent too much money on it, I guess that makes it more complicated.

I want to learn how to use them properly and develop stuff I can be proud of...

There is nothing wrong with anyone doing something for the joy of it...

But for some people, there is a desire to achieve more than a past time...

I like my supplies but I wish I wasn't so obsessed with getting more to try out...

When I'm lonely and depressed, there are few things I can enjoy.

I thought about joining art clubs but I don't know if I can have any connection with anyone. It's just a complicated thing.

Different people have different ideas about art. Sometimes I don't like sharing my art with other artists because I feel like it can be de-motivating and critical.

Of course, I want to do things that I can be proud of myself and not feel influenced by anyone.

It's just very complicated. At times, I don't know why I like art, it cannot pay the bills and that stresses me out...Then I wish I never got back into art.