Wow - a very close call just now. It’s my ex’s father’s anniversary on Friday too. Our fathers died on the same day, but his was two years ago so they died a year apart. I unblocked him on my cell and ALMOST sent him a nice text about it. Ugh. Then I thought better of it. The repercussions of doing so are far too great. He will automatically interpret it to mean I still love and care for him. He’ll think I miss him and he’ll falsely believe that’s why I’m reaching out. Then it will likely cause more communications which will inevitably result in more anguish, hurt, and pain. I cannot reopen the lines of communication. I stopped myself and blocked him again.
However, I really wish I COULD reach out to him. It's too bad that we cannot have that kind of friendship.
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"Twenty-five years and my life is still trying to get up that great big hill of hope for a destination"
~4 Non Blondes
Last edited by Have Hope; Jun 13, 2023 at 09:02 AM.
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