I’m so upset over my sister.. my anxiety is through the roof. I can’t believe I was pushed to the point of disowning her and blocking her. I am in shock over what happened. I think she has resented me because she’s told me that she has always believed that mom loves me but not her. She said she never felt loved by our mother. So I think deep down, she bears a grudge with me and has an ax to grind, even though it’s not my fault. She never joins us for Thanksgiving dinner. Mom told me last night that my sister has not visited my mom at her home all year and ever since dad died. It’s all f’ed up.. everything is. I feel absolutely horrible about the things I said to her last night. I was deeply upset and her words towards me cut me really deep, like a knife.