I see that I am reading this a couple of weeks later, and I'm curious to know if you've made progress. I have been through what you are going through (actually, it never totally went away). I actually lost my job because of it at the time. I barely went anywhere for about a year, and didn't even want to talk to anyone besides my husband and kids. Sometimes that was even too much for me. Take small steps. It's so painful, in a way that it indescribable, but do it anyway as often as you can. You'll see that after a small steps, nothing terrible happened. Then you can try it again, then again a little farther, then again farther yet. I hope you are doing ok. Just give it a try.