Omg I'm so depressed. I have full body depression. I'm finishing my novel regardless though. I don't even care if it has a depressing ending. I WILL finish it!!!! I am determined. I'm making myself go to the zoo with husband and daughter. No point in laying around the apartment by myself all day.

TRIGGER warning:

Monday afternoon I heard voices telling me to SUI, and when I closed my eyes I saw blood dripping out the corners of my vision.

I just feel.... well, WRONG! Like my reality has gone somewhat out of focus.

Boo hoo!