I woke up, very cloudy/foggy minded..

I drank a coffee, then took afternoon stim and 75mg of pregabalin. Now, very clear minded.. Mood is good..

But I despair for the world still. All I did was get my act together.. And now have to deal with what's online right? Nonsense.. I'd like to study/attend to interests - Somewhat, with goals.. Exercising a bit (Hiking - Will get my mountain bike fixed..), vacations (Sometimes).. I just find it hard to do anything, when I don't have friends anymore. It's been more quiet now, past ~2 years..

ChatGPT helps me out a bit - It's just daily, slow progress to aligning my values, etc.. Introspection of who am I? - Especially after my ego was obliterated, many times - With dissociative panic attacks.

I'm okay with my psychiatrist.. Don't need to change meds.. I'll see him in around a month or so.. And get the Invega Trinza injection, when? Idk.. I'll have to figure that out. And "paliperidone" is an "Essential medicine listed by the World Health Organization" (So should be no problem to synthesize and cover, ship here, have it paid for etc - When medications aren't manufactured/produced by China - When tension arrises).

I have the best life.. I had the craziest thoughts over the past 6 years.. I'm waiting for my mom and I to move to the island.. And by that time, there will be unlimited chaos - My dad might move in with us. I texted my dad last night, and he's just working until retirement (~1-3 years).. I'll be with my family, siblings.. I'll get a drivers license, and do my own thing.. Be comfortable..

Many people.. Are addicted to drugs, not getting psychiatric help, causing crime - On every street over there.. Homeless.. It'll get worse (IMO).

I remember giving up.. and having no awareness.. My environment was awful - Isolation, abuse, then neglect.. Anyway.. It's all good..