I had my first DBT group yesterday. It went pretty well. Everybody's really friendly, and it's okay if you have no clue wtf you're doing. We have homework to challenge certain myths around interpersonal relationships.

It felt like I was in recovery from bulimia but in reality I went from severe to mild. Which is good. It's steps forward. Last night was just awful though. I don't know what I did, but I made myself really physically sick after purging (lightheaded, headache, tired, weak, shakey, kinda confused/loopy). I still have the headache and I'm queasy.

And I'm done with the alcohol once I run out and the marijuana (and anything else that might tempt me).

Weird thing happened last night. I was wide awake around 3am waiting for the sun to wake up and I heard my mom say "Come here and see this spirit!" so I went to her room and she woke up and asked me what the hell I was doing there. First non-hypnogogic hallucination in months. I am pretty sleep-deprived (and then there's the mj use) so I think it's more so that than the sza.

I think today is going to be a good day even though I physically feel like crap.