I had a session with my addiction Dr. yesterday, and it was really weird. She kept telling me how far i've come in a year, and how great it is that I'm starting to think about isolating less and dealing with my social anxiety and start asking people out. She was really positive. I mean I know I'm a lot better than I was this time last year, when I was in a psych hospital, and now I'm not depressed and I've been sober for over 6 months and I'm back working. I know I've put in a lot of hard work, but I guess I just see how much more work i have left to do in order to get over my anxiety as opposed to reflecting on how far I've come. It made me feel kind of uncomfortable. Why can't I just accept a compliment and acknowledge to myself the progress that I have made?
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"I danced in the morning when the world was begun. I danced in the moon and the stars and the sun". From my favourite hymn.
"If you see the wonder in a fairy tale, you can take the future even if you fail." Abba
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