how is it that i have it so bad... why cant the Nike slogan apply here to getting better?
am i really that bad?
ok %#@&#! yes im suffering tremendously......but how would a hospital stay help me? ive been to one and it didnt help. psych hospitals dont work and they arent meant for me.
NO
i know what i need...
i need to get my house in order, i need to pay my bills off from manic overspending, i need some meds,i need a man, i need friends, and i need to work close to my house.

so everday im taking meds, today im taking care of the house, next month it will be the bills, my work is willing to get me closer to home (crossing fingers), you guys are my friends, and BOB takes care of my man needs.

see?
im gonna be fine.