You are right, you will be yourself, always.
Knowing where you want to be is one thing, taking a bite out of that large goal is another, then repeating takes on even more of a challenge.

I said things like you have here, and it took time to figure it out. I have seen people succeed, and others fail. It may seem bleak know, and soemthing could change in the future. Knowing if you will fight for something to change could help.

Are you willing to be a fighter?