I cried hard last night cuz my mom is gone for two nights, getting yearly cancer check. And I think about all of the things in my life...

I felt sleepy and went to bed at 1am.

Today has been a good day though. I went to work, stayed even longer than usual (To get stuff done) - And they gave me lunch. I feel a little hyper and silly, from a microdose.

Things are coming in place.. I talked with my family (On a group chat) - And I told them about some goals I have.. They don't want me to go into such internet rabbit holes, lonely, stressed, anxious etc...

But I'm okay.. I just want to make use of this life (For what it's for), and then die... I am given this life... for some reason.. But a reason nonetheless...