Struggling the last few days.

My daughter is wishing she had a mom in her life. My daughter also didn't receive the anger that me and the oldest received.

So, I'm second guessing that, wondering if I should be encouraging a relationship there. I talked to my daughter and she said even if mom was around she still wouldn't have what she needed.

And thinking about good times, and mourning. I have always longed and wished for more of her.

I haven't reached out to her at all though.

This whole thing of recognizing it was all a facade is hard to come to terms with.

RDM