Thanks TheGal, I'm pretty alone on this and it's been a pleasure to see that there are protocols in place. I feel like on a raft, with few directions and my pdoc only appears when I have crashed against some rock. Don't ask me why but he doesn't believe in crisis plans and I can see that even my only family member that helps me out doesn't clearly know what to do. I've recently convinced her that we need a psychologist's help and I've already attended my first therapy session. I need to change things, thanks for your feedback. Peace.

PS. oh, I've dealt with OCD many years, I believe I somehow still have it but it's been weakened... stay strong, thegal