So unmotivated. I just don't know what to do.

If I'm not supposed to search conspiracies (Which are on the "Intellectual dark web"), then what do I do..

I'd draw or something, if... I didn't know what I know.. And that there's very very limited time.

I think acid would help me do creative things... Idk. I have schiz, can't do that anyway. What is schizophrenia..

Staying up late, two nights in a row caused this. My mom said that I can work full time if I had to - Idk if I can.. Why does everyone have to be a slave to make pennies?? That's the whole point of why I'm searching about the corruption/conspiracies!..

I'm not pathological, in what I do.. I'm somewhat smart.. I can take time, to pet my cat, appreciate nature and stuff.. I have a heart, I'm not cold. But I know things.. I have to listen to myself, but everyone keeps warning me of stuff.

I have a heavy 3rd eye now.... But I'm not a nut and never will be.