Thread: Daily Check In Thread for those with an eating disorder of any kind #3
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Old Jun 18, 2023, 02:55 AM
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Idk why I'm bulimic

4am questions

Possible trigger:
so if/when I do reach that weight and freak the absolute **** out I'm supposed to call on-call and (I think I'm hallucinating right now) and remind myself my leg will heal and I'll be able to run again and I'll be able to lose the weight again. It's only temporary. My gut will heal and learn to digest food again and I won't be so bloated and constipated all the time.

But at the same time she's telling me I'll always struggle with being self-destructive thoughts just because I grew up in a shytty environment and got shytty genes.
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