Hi Rohag,
Thank you for your kind reply. Journal helps me more in organizing my thoughts, the meds are hard to stop because I will get panic and difficult to breathe.
You know my friend losing my wife and kids did really finally break me completely this was in 2014, but after this I have been battling for my life I have a new couple but is a complex person too and I doubt she will stick around.
Now I am 47 and I feel if I am losing or a loser can my friends give me some advice.
Love you all and big hugs

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