Thank you, Gal

I'm on my community mental health center's ACT team, so I have a therapist (who frequently cancels because she's running the whole team), peer support (who frequently cancels because she's a wreck herself), and a case manager (who's out for surgery until July). I live with my mother right now and she's helping me not be homeless and starving, but she really doesn't know how to deal with anything else. She doesn't even know the half of it. I find this forum as a support, and a friend that left the forum that I stayed in touch with too via email. All my irl relationships are really chaotic and not all that supportive (lots of push-pull, testing boundaries, either being afraid of getting close or getting too close and then realizing they're not all that great, etc.)

SUD is substance use disorder and sza is schizoaffective (bipolar type).

CPTSD is a possibility. I really don't know enough about what distinguishes the two. I've definitely had the type of trauma that qualifies me for cptsd