I am extremely confused.

You were repeatedly asking on here how you can ask her out and how you could express your feelings etc you were doing it as recent as yesterday. Then when she asks you out you say no because you didn’t want to accommodate her ambiguity and now you are saying you are done pursuing her all together.

First of all her going on dates is perfectly acceptable as she’s single. Her going on a date shouldn’t be a blow. You aren’t dating her or asking her out, why can’t she go on dates. You also can’t say she goes on dates with some other guys while rejecting you. Not sure why you say that. She never said no to you because you never made your interest known.

As about talking about her to people who know her for a long time and they are telling you what kind of men she dates, wow. They aren’t to be trusted. What sneaky people gossiping behind her back. They’ll do it to you too. Not honorable folks

Not sure why you set a time limit for relationship. I got married at 50. I don’t know how old you are but what’s the rush? You are setting yourself for failure.