Thanks TG. It was one of many low moments for me.

Oh TG, I gave up art in 2004 when I lost my job and couldn't pay for art classes anymore. I only started getting supplies in Nov 2021 when I was finally feeling stable in my current job...

I did art class 5 years until 2004 but I never learned anything. My art teacher told me what to do and set me up with the reference. He only provided me feedback. I was unhappy going but I didn't know how to speak up for myself and I didn't what was the issue either. I thought I hated art. He was getting me to do these huge paintings of other artist's work which I hated doing but I didn't feel like I was allowed to complain because I was the student but I wasn't learning anything. And I didn't know what I wanted to do instead. I thought maybe art was wrong for me and maybe I wasn't an artist after all.

I gave up art so long. I couldn't even look at art anymore because I hated my experiences and I felt like a failure.

So I have already been away from doing art for so long. It's regretful.

The difference between now is that I am buying higher quality materials. When I was taking art classes, I was buying student quality paints because paying the art teacher was expensive.

I still don't do much artwork. My depression is getting bad. I ocd finding a good deal on high quality supplies and ordering it.