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Originally Posted by JaneOnceMore
I have anxiety because i talked a lot at my mental health drop-in. I usually just listen. It was exciting but now i worry i was annoying or inappropriate. I try and tell myself it's a benevolent and compassionate place and i let others talk too. It's just so very unusual for me to express myself, i feel so uneasy when i do. Does anyone else...
@ Soupe du jour:
I'm sorry to hear you are struggling in your marriage. I got tired of the constant negotiation and compromise when i was married too. I enjoy the independence of being single now, but the discomfort of the loneliness is pretty steep too. You've got the added stress of being in a country new to you and having to rely on your husband probably more than you're comfortable with. As you learn the language and get over obstacles like driving you'll likely be happier. Is taking public transit an option? I imagine if you even challenged yourself to run a simple errand alone, you'd be pleased. |
Thanks, @
JaneOnceMore!
I want to say that I'm not really struggling in my marriage as much as just getting frustrated with the compromises. Hubby is a dominant type who rarely allows himself to lose an argument. He does compromise occasionally, though. You are absolutely right that my dependence on him in Czech Republic is a big challenge for me and part of the issue. My fear and resistance to taking more steps to be independent is my own issue. I hate to say "my own fault", but it is to a degree, yet I find these words too harsh. My post here sounds a little like Miguel'smom's, I think. I'll give myself similar advice.
There is a bus to Prague only two blocks from my house. I'm yet to take it, as Hubby always drives us/me there. The ride is nearlt 1 1/2 hours given its many stops. Long, yet also a chance to sit and meditate. I should also take more walks around where I live. There is a small village square with a library and some shops. Plus a pretty neighborhood and an old church (1730). An even bigger town is a 15 minute drive away with even more shops and a lovely old monastery dating back to 1032.
I understand anxiety after speaking in front of groups. Again speaking for myself, I have a wee bit of social anxiety. But when I am hypomanic or manic, I get what I call "Star of the Show Syndrome". That has its negatives, as well. Anyway, it's okay. We are far from the only people at such events that feel that way. Sometimes it feels that we are.