I AM a hypochondriac at times... haha

It's quite possible that the meds cause some reduction in brain cells (although I haven't read the article about antipsychotics), the alternative which is having psychosis is terrifying to me. I read somewhere that not keeping up with antipsychotic treatment and suffering repeated episodes of psychosis is damaging to the brain as well.

I think there's a lot that the doctors don't know, to be frank.

All I know is I wish to remain stable, so I take my meds and hope for the best.