Dear T,
Kinda wish I hadn't gone there today while being away and not seeing you until Monday now. I'll do my best not to email you. I mean, I guess it's good I'm in the "light orange" (how many shades are in your scale exactly???) and that you'd let me know first if you felt you'd need to charge for a response. But I'm not sure what I even want to ask? Like I said, I'm going to just try to hold the thing you said at the end, about your feelings evolving and becoming less uncomfortable with what I said, in my mind. And I hope I can do that. Maybe journal about it some. Channel it into my writing.

And gees, couldn't you have just said "Yes, I'll be away this weekend" (with being off Friday) or not, without the cryptic answer about email? Maybe you didn't want me to feel like I couldn't reach out.

Anyway...maybe in some ways it's good I got some of that out, and there's a bit of a longer break now? Like maybe that's actually a good thing? I don't know...maybe I should have just done the session tomorrow instead, but I didn't like having to race home from the beach, then go back out again to see you. But a handshake at the end today would have been nice.

Love,
LT